Day Out With Thomas!

He is my Sunshine, My only Sunshine

Is it Summer yet?

An old hobby revived.

Shine on

My mind is blank.
I hear the clock ticking. 
I hear birds chirping.
I hear wind chimes.
My eyes are closed.
My breathing is calm.
I am still.

All of a sudden,  my mind is no longer blank as it becomes the loudest noise of all.
My thoughts are racing and I cannot figure out where they begin and where they end.
My heart begins to beat faster and faster.
Fear sets in as I wonder how I have gotten to this place.
The emotions are overwhelming and I cannot compose myself any longer.
I begin to sob.
This is an all too common occurrence, because tears are my friends.
They are the only ones by my side during these times.
They are also my enemy, because tears frustrate you.
You do not sympathize and my sobs are no longer a sad thing to hear, but an annoying noise you wish would go away.
I don't like being emotional but I don't know any other way to be.
I am who I am.